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Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
8:44 pm	updating!! haha we're all in an updating kinda mood tonite! haha but i don't really know what to say thats why i dont ever write in this thing anymore but i do have this for you to answer...... Would you... go out with me? give me your number? kiss me? let me kiss you? watch a movie with me? take me out to dinner? drive me somewhere cut some rug with me? wtf? take a shower with me? be my bf/gf? have a fling with me? buy me a drink? take me home for the night? Would you let me sleep in your bed? Sing car karaoke w/ me? give me oral/ eat- out? re-post this for me to answer your questions? let me give you a piggyback ride? Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere b my Valentine? Send me flowers? fuck me? D0 Y0U... think im dead sexy? want to kiss me? want to cuddle wit me? want to hook up with me? ARE WE... aquintences? friends? in a relationship? gonna have kids? gunna get married? Have hot crazy steamy wild sex?? AM i... smart? hot? funny? cool? HAVE Y0U EVER... thought about me? thought there might be an "us"? thought about hookin up with me? found yourself wanting to kiss me? wished i were there? ARE Y0U... done with this survey? happy you know me? mad at me? thinkin bout me? yea baby! ha im jk ill talk to u guys later!! Current Mood: and happy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 5th, 2005
4:51 pm	If I.. If I... *Was walking in the rain and u had an umbrella, would u keep me dry? *Was sick would u come take care of me? *Fell asleep would u carry me to my bed and tuck me in? *Yelled at you and pushed you away, what would u do? *Asked you a question, would you be 100% completely honest with me, no matter what the question was? *Was kicked outta my house, would I be able to crash at your place for the night? *Was stranded on the side of the road with my car, would you come help me even if it was hailing, storming, 4:30 in the morning, or whatever? *Told you I didn't believe in "love" what would you tell me? *Hurt you in anyway would you forgive me? *Was in trouble and it was a situation you couldn't do anything about, would u still do something about it to help me? *Was crying, what would u do? *Smiled at you, would u smile back? *Cold, would u give me something to keep me warm? *Hit u would u hit me back? *Looked lonely, would u come cuddle with me to keep me company? Current Mood: excited (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 24th, 2005
7:19 pm	Britni's Survey...with my answers lol NINE WAYS TO WIN MY HEART: 09. Love God 08. Be honest!! 07. Make me laugh 06. Listen too, not just talk 05. Be patient with me 04. Do cute,romantic things sometimes lol awww 03. Good with family and friends(mostly family) 02. Don't be imature and confusing, just talk to me and be real 01. Just be yourself ALL THE TIME EIGHT THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE: 08. Fall in love 07. Get married and have kids 06. Good career, make lots of money 05. Ha mine n Britni's list! ya baby 04. Make a difference in the world 03. Meet Brad Pitt! 02. Skydiving..just cuz I'm scared of heights lol 01. Have a really good relationship with my dad SEVEN WAYS TO ANNOY ME: 07. Lying to me 06. Touch me with your feet! eew lol oo n wearing socks n sandals! goodness lol 05. Smoke, another eew 04. Put me down or my friends n family down 03. Chew with your mouth open or smack your lips 02. I know it sounds mean but I get annoyed when you say something n people keep saying huh? n no matter how many times you say it or how loud, they don't seem to hear you! urgh my mom does that lol 01. When someone calls you and your too busy or can't get to the phone for sum reason n instead of leaving a message, they call and call and call every 2 seconds even tho you have caller ID lol SIX THINGS I BELIEVE IN: 06. God 05. Love 04. Miracles 03. Truth/Honesty 02. Forgiveness 01. Committment FIVE things I'm afraid of: 05. OMG I hate this question I'm scared of the dumbest things! umm.. my biggest fear and I uno why, but I'm very afraid of old people haha how sad 04. Clowns 03. Heights 02. Hurting someone I love or care about 01. Failure FOUR of my favorite things: 04. Sleeping/Eating!! 03. Shopping 02. Softball 01. Hanging out with friends..craziness THREE things I do everyday: 03. Sleep 02. Eat 01. Laugh TWO things I want to do right now: 02. Take a shower 01. Get a massage ONE person I want to see right now: 01. haha yea umm who knows lol (Comment on this)
Monday, December 27th, 2004
12:33 pm	Britnis Words of Wisdom So I just put Mickle's classic "Parisian Kiss" photo up for Christine as her user picture. It's hot! I wish I was wherever they are in that pic. I think they're in Paris (or as the french say 'Pari' but I'm not french so screw that. lol. jk). Anyhow it took me two days to find one that would fit, but that's ok cuz I love her!!! But I dislike colin. He's such a mean boy, u know whose a nice boy tho? Joshua! He gave us FREE ice cream last nite. 3 whole bowls. That's friggin awesome. Sux tho cuz I wasted the last part of my ice cream throwing it at colin cuz he friggin deserved it for friggin staining my shirt and making fun of how I ate (just cuz I have no fat and it was cold and I ate ice cream, I was shaking). That boy makes me mad. I hope he gets fat and dies of obeisity. No that's mean. I hope he just gets fat and can't move. Anywayz so me n Christine were up till 3/4 in the morning talking about banana popsicles and scoops of ice cream. haha! Obviously u had to be there. Then we watched tv (what losers are we) and then we ate mcdonalds (cuz we're cool like that. screw u if u don't like that stuff. lol). Oh and we almost died again crossing that main road when u take acoma. It went down like this: ('Calling All Angels' by Jessica Simpson is playing) Me: *squeals as our car is almost hit by oncoming traffic* (ps I was driving) Christine: OMG! *slap* Me: Sorry. *lol* Christine...*loox at christine*...if...if...I had to die with anyone...I'd want it to be you. Christine: Awww me 2 but I don't wanna die. (dane we were definitely callin all angels rite then n thurr) Haha well I gtg but this was fun, I'ma have Christine do mine cuz she's friggin hot like hot dogs n big macs. Yum, crispy ones! haha! Peace! *SMOOCH* XOXO~BRIT BRI PS~Christine says HI! Current Mood: crazy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2004
7:38 pm	................... okay so I've been sad before and said I was depressed, but I think this tops everything. last night I was sad cuz of my mom and sister and I felt bad for josh but I was just kinda like eh things will work out. But today my dad took me and my sister out for lunch(which is like a every other month thing, the only time I see him) and it all started. ever since I was little he would kinda single me out and be mean and pick on me and he was doing it again today so I told him he hurt my feelings. He's all telling me that's just how he is and he's not gonna change or stop so I better get used to it and then he's all well you know what christine you get on my nerves too, which I mean theres a difference between me getting on his nerves just cuz I'm a girl and him making me cry all the time. So then he told me that he's just about done with me and from now on I can use my babysitting money to buy everything I need (he never buys anything for me). urgh I came home and got in an arguement with my mom over something stupid and my sister was just being dumb as always so I just broke down and cried for like an hour. I don't understand why my dad doesn't like me or why I'm not good enough for him but the way I see it, he's never here for me now he doesn't do much for me so it'll be almost the same I guess. okay that's a lie it won't be okay cuz I need my dad but I unno what I'm gonna do...... everythings just adding up. I don't understand why you can be surrounded by so many people and feel so alone, I don't understand why people get pleasure out of making you feel like crap, and most of all I don't understand how people can be so mean. and I wish relationships weren't so complicated. But it's life so oh well. Tomorrow should be better, right. love you all muah! christine Current Mood: and pissed and rejected (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
9:19 pm	yeye I'm so excited this is like the best week ever! my mom bought a new car, a pontiac grand amm and it's awesome(I have a key)!! haha woohoo and we only have 2 half days of school left, I'm soooooo excited!and things are better with my friends..except me and britni don't talk much anymore.. but everything else is great! I hafta talk to a certain someone before break cuz that would suck to hafta wait 2 weeks... and jessie, my sister finally started today!! haha lmao oki well I gtg I should prolly actually study for finals... prolly not love you all soooooo much!! night night christine happy b-day stacie!! Current Mood: thoughtful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 12th, 2004
9:56 pm	ahh!! hey guys, just got kinda stressed so I thought I'd write. My mom's on her way to University and Dobsin right now to pick up my aunt. She was in rehab and she got kicked out I guess, so now she's gonna stay with us. man o man I don't know what's gonna happen cuz it's my dad's sister and he doesn't talk to her anymore but my mom felt bad so she had to get her and I just don't know how my dad's gonna react. oh well I guess.. and me n my sister went to lunch with my dad today and I think I actually had a real conversation with him! haha and he was talking about buying my a saturn!! hopefully soon but I doubt it cuz he said before I'm "out on my own" lol whatever, it was a good weekend and I'm excited about this week and about break and christmas!! woohoo and I actually passed my skills final in HCT! phew 1 down, 3 to go! heh well I guess I'll go get my little brother's room ready for my aunt to sleep in. I'm actually excited to see her...... hmm love you all soooooo much night night christine Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 4th, 2004
7:20 pm	hey guys, today was crazy. I went to the game and my friend britni picked me and Samantha up and omg we got soooo lost! we were 45 minutes late haha and then I ran into somebody I didn't exactly wanna see and it was freezing and we didn't win and on the way home we got lost again and we had to stop somewhere to fix a tire and we didn't get home till like 5 30. but it was fun lol and today is Jessie's birthday so I think tonight instead of going to Travis' party we're gonna go out with her! She's 17! love you all buh-bye christine Current Mood: thirsty (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
6:13 pm	Drama hey guys man this week has been kinda crazy! I'm stressed out with school urgh I hate it, someone I'm very close to had emergency surgery on their heart, my mom's best friend found out she had cysts in her throat that are huge and prolly cancerous, my best friend is stressed out because of her dad and she was crying this morning and it just sucks that I can't help her, I haven't talked to my other friend in over a week n I unno whats going on there, I'm comtemplating whether I should talk to my friend about a serious problem she has but it's kinda not my place,my aunt's in rehab and I feel terrible she's all alone,I spent an hour with a man whose wife died yesterday and he was all crying so I feel bad, and everything is the same with my dad.. we're so close! ha haven't talked to him in like a month. eh sorry guys just had to vent. but at least christmas is coming up! best holiday ever!! and tomorrow's early release woohoo! lol I gotta take a shower, love you all goodnight HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSIE!! on saturday lol I LOVE YOU!! christine Current Mood: thoughtful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 22nd, 2004
9:31 pm	Thingy 01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex on the lips. 02. I see a therapist. 03. I'm the youngest child. 04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness. 05. I have gauged earrings. 06. I wear black eyeliner every day. 07. I am extremely influenced by kindness. 08. I love to write. 09. I can't live without lipgloss. 10. I'm probably emotionally scarred. 11. I lived in Tahoe. 12. I spend money I have. 13. I'll be in college for over 4 years 14. I love designer handbags. 15. I've had a concussion before. 16. I'm not good with confrontation. 17. I loved the Backstreet Boys. 18. I have more than a couple horrible memories 19. I'm addicted to Degrassi. 20. I've tried writing poetry before 21. My first kiss was unexpected. 22. I'm not a fan of rap. 23. I love taking pictures. 24. I hate girls who are fake. 25. I can be mean when I want to. 26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached. 27. I am bisexual. 28. I have way too many pairs of shoes. 29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child. 30. I dress how I feel that day. 31. My room is painted a color other than white. 32. I cry very easily. 33. I'm always early. 34. I barely ever study for tests. 35. My birthday is my favorite holiday. 36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. 37. I am a morning person. 38. I wish I was smarter. 39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay. 40. I think that its perfectly ok to be gay. 41. No one really knows me. 42. I don't have many bad hair days. 43. I sometimes fight with my parents. 44. I am passionate about my interests. 45. I have had the chicken pox. 46. I'm a hopeless romantic.  47. I feel empty sometimes. 48. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life. 49. I am no longer depressed. 50. I am very outgoing. 51. Christmas is my favorite holiday 52. I can be very insecure. 53. I'm sarcastic. 54. I dislike ignorant people. 55. I love the color yellow. 56. I love guys that play the guitar. 57. I state the obvious. 58. I'm a happy person. 59. I have absolutely no self-confidence. 60. I've contemplated suicide. 61. I hate cleaning my room.. 62. I tend to get jealous. 63. I like to play video games. 64. I love John Mayer. 65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person. 66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef. 67. I've had a crush on a teacher before. 68. I am  forgiving. 70. I have a good sense of direction. 71. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend before. 72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years. 73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend. 74. I love kisses on the forehead. 75. I love the color blue. 76. I don't sew. 77. I am not addicted to drugs. 78. I wear contacts. 79. I hate it when people say they hate Bush because he is a moron. They should have more reason than that.               80. I hate (don't HATE, just dislike) Bush, but I have reasons to justify it. 81. I don't take criticism well. 82. Conformity is stupid. 83. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive. 84. i love sleeping.                                                                                                                                              85. I love my family. 86. I don't mind getting shots. 87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things. 88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums. 89. I can be too hard on myself. 90. I'm probably going to have premarital sex. 91. I don't like my nose. 92. I am  religious. 93. I still act like a little kid. 94. I am ridiculously indecisive. 95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife. (not just some form) umm..?? I just believe in going to heaven or hell. 96. I love music. 97. I  love. 98. I have problems letting go of people.. 99. Jesse Lacey writes some of the most amazing lyrics ever. 100. I'd like to be more orginal. (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 21st, 2004
9:33 pm	Saturday Night hey guys last night I went to maricopa medical center for my health care class, I had to be there for 5 freakin hours and I went to the Labor and Delivery floor! I saw a c-section which was pretty gross and I saw 2 vaginal deliveries which were absolutely disgusting. I had to stand right by the doctor and yea haha let's just say I'm NEVER having kids!! mebbe I'll adopt. and I saw a women get an epideral. ay yi yi ok well now that you all know that, I'm gonna go take a shower haha luv you all buhbye christine Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 13th, 2004
10:44 pm	woohoo!! ha I'm so tired I just got home from a concert I went to with my friend and this guy Trent is in a band that played called Soon To Rise and oh my goodness brit! :wink wink: the lead singer,Andrew was..omg I can't even think of words haha he was just hot and had like the sexiest voice ever!! ahh lol newayz I took a vicodin for my mouth(if you don't know, I got my wisdom teeth pulled)so I'm a lil bit loopy right now and tired I'm trying to stay awake so I can finish downloading aim since it's not working right now, my computer's so gay. oki well ima go see if aim will work now n go to bed cuz I gots to get up early for church luv you all buh-bye christine Current Mood: giddy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 25th, 2004
12:58 pm	I'm updating! lol I haven't updated in a while and people keep tellin me I need to, so I am. I'm just REALLY tired, I got home late last night and then had to wake up at 5:30 to go with my church to help another church that's just getting started. We had to paint and go through everything and clean it all. and jessie if your reading this, sorry I had to be home earlier then usual last night and I couldn't stay with you, collin, and brett but I kinda got in trouble lol and I had to get up early but I'm sry mebbe tonight cuz theres gonna be a party at my house all my mom's friends or w/e so ima be leavin lol. my mom found out brian was drunk last night haha that was hilarious! Paster Mike payed me today for watching the twins thursday brit so that's my victoria's secret money! haha lmao great times great times!well ima go shower n lay down for a lil bit before I do anything. luv ya everyone!! christine (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 6th, 2004
8:00 pm	muahaha lol I'm in a really good mood! newayz, this weekend I saw Napolean Dynamite!! haha great movie n I saw Anacanda and the Bourne Identity finally. but yea today I went out with my dad and we actually talked. I'm so happy cuz we like NEVER do that but yea.. lol jessie member those boyzzz at the movies hehe great times. I just did my gay essay in like 20 minutes and I was sposed to go out with britni but now I can't.I get to start making money. I can't get a job cuz of school and everything else so I get to babysit for about an hour after school and make like 20 bucks one little boy ima watch is autistic so I'm really excited I get to help him. well I gotta take a shower so I'll talk to you all later! xoxo christine Current Mood: excited (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
7:07 pm	urgh my dad hates me!! man o man.... I had a really good day until I talked to my dad on the phone. We got in another arguement. I really don't know why he hates me. I had to do something for him to not like me I just don't know what. I mean he's always had a REALLY bad temper like yelling and throwing things and he's actually hurt me a few times on accident but he never made me feel like this. My mom says it's just because I'm growing up and he doesn't know how to deal with me. He gets mad because I don't wanna go to his house much(even though he doesn't want me there)and ?'s everything I do. Doesn't trust me at all, he thinks I'm a really bad kid and I'm not. He lets my little sister get away with everything because she sucks up to him and cuz she's the favorite but he yells at me over the dumbest stuff and calls me stupid. I'm so sick of it, I just feel bad because he has no one left except for his cousin. And I found sumtin else out about him the other day and if it's true I won't be able to see him anymore. ay yi yi I just want everything to be better and for him to like me again. sry guys I just had to get that out, I've been holding it in cuz theres really no one for me to talk to about this. this is soo gay!! eh well ima go lay down I'll talk to you guys later lylas xoxo christine Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
8:11 pm	Questions!! hey guys plz answer these questions for me!! 1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 2. Am I lovable? 3. How long have you known me? 4. When and how did we first meet? 5. What was your first impression? 6. Do you still think that way about me now? 7. What do you think my weakness is? 8. Do you think I'll get married? 9. What makes me happy? 10. What makes me sad? 11. What reminds you of me? 12. If you could give me anything what would it be? 13. How well do you know me? 14. When's the last time you saw me? 15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 16. Do you think I could kill someone? 17. Describe me in one word. 18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same? 19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? 20. Are you going to put this on your profile and see what I say about you? 21. Wanna make out? thx christine Current Mood: happy (14 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 6th, 2004
2:14 pm	OMG!! haha my pee story hey guys! I'm in a weird mood today.. but I'm so happy I finally started my period man I was freakin out! lol (sry boys) newayz... last night was soooo much fun! me n brit went over to sarah's n kristen, alex, travis, danessa, krystal, jake and ezra were over there haha it was crazy! Jake started throwin everyone in the pool but me n danessa were still in our clothes so we ran out the front door n then we realized we both had to pee like REALLY bad so we were running down the street trying to find a j-jon by the new houses or sumtin n then we came to a park but the bathroom doors were locked so I was like screw this let's find a bush lol so we're both peeing behind a bush n I'm like screaming at danessa "so are you gonna wipe with a leaf or like drip dry?!"(we shoulda thougth about that before we started peeing behind a bush!) haha lmao we both ended up wiping with a leaf(in case u were wondering) but I would definately recommend charmin over a leaf! lol then we went back but it was crazy!! I had to be home early, by 11 cuz I had an EARLY doctors appointment this morning but on the way back we were kinda lost n i got home at 11:30. my mom was a lil mad but I didn't get grounded cuz i wasn't driving so yay! lol I love driving with you brit!! always fun! and my mom's still going outta town tomorrow but now I have no idea what I'm doing so lemme know! lol well I'm gonna go get some FOOD I'll talk to you all later! love you xoxo christine Current Mood: dorky (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 5th, 2004
11:53 am	hey guys! I'm so tired we got to bed at like 5:30am n woke up at 9:00am!Brit just left cuz i got her a date with Billy Ryan so she's gotta get ready. lol whoohoo!! haha so yea i dyed my hair last night, i just put streaks in it and i don't really like it so i think im gonna redo it today. and I'm so scared cuz my mom made me an appointment with her doctor for tomorrow morning! a female doctor guys! and she says I'm just getting a physical so I don't hafta do one again when softball starts but i don't think so..lol o gosh newayz oh yea! my mom is going to vegas saturday n she'll be outta town overnight so i'm extremely excited about that! i know brinti's coming over to my house with timmy. lol brit, just tell him to..."watch a movie" wink wink and I'm definately not gonna waste the opportunity either! haha I recently found sumtin out about guys that is very very amusing to me. haha lmao that's great ok well i gotta go work out n wait for britni's call to see how the dates going so I'll talk to you guys later! love you all xoxo christine Current Mood: bouncy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 2nd, 2004
9:17 pm	ahhhhh!! hey guys,I'm sooooo excited!!Today was like the best day ever!! When I woke up I went to the store and bought paint and other stuff to redo my room and it looks so cool! lol Then, this lady I babysit for had a baby so i went to the hospital to see him and he's so cute and fat! but they named him Cade.. how sad. lol ok now i hafta tell you a short story in order for u to get the next part..lol.. When i was in 5th grade, my mom married this really gross guy and so we all moved into a house(with tawnee, eew) and we became friends with the people across the street like imediately. Who cares, newayz.....they were friends with these people who had a son my age named Justin(very cute) and so they were across the street all the time. Well yea, b4 ya kno it we're going out and we go out for like 5 years on and off! That's a long time! lol But I dumped him right b4 freshman year and then he moved and we haven't talked since. But I got exciting news today! the people who used to live across the street went to prescott to visit his Dad (who lives up there) and it just so happens they were visiting him! So we found out they live like 1/2 a block away from me! I'm so excited to talk to him! even though I realized I don't think I could ever go out with him again, I wanna be friends. lol Now I'm sitting here listening to 96.9 in a really good mood and the BROKEN just came on! I love that song! lol but yea i'm gonna go on aim now so i love you all!! xoxo christine Current Mood: excited (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 1st, 2004
6:34 pm	hey guys! what's up?! last night I saw the Butterfly Effect and it was soooo confusing!! but it was good. Today I woke up at like 10 and had to work for my dad so we could go shopping. We ate lunch at Garcia's and then he dropped us off at metro(the scary mall) lol anyways we got tons of new clothes and I saw Richard there with his daddy lol Now I'm sitting here watching the Ashlee Simpson show cuz I'm really bored and she's cool as hell! haha lmao. Yea and I think I'm gonna start doing this journal thing regularly. Ok I'm going out so I'll talk to you guys later.. luv you all!! xoxo christine Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)